{"id":1384,"date":"2026-02-08T14:02:15","date_gmt":"2026-02-08T05:02:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/?post_type=interview&#038;p=1384"},"modified":"2026-02-08T14:02:17","modified_gmt":"2026-02-08T05:02:17","slug":"erikaneki_en","status":"publish","type":"interview","link":"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/stories\/erikaneki_en\/","title":{"rendered":"The Sensation of &#8220;Trusting Myself&#8221; That Emerged Beyond Sadness"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-text-align-left\">Ms. Neki works to harmonize body and mind through bed spa treatments.<br>In her days of supporting others, she visited nehan seeking time to face her own inner world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-left\">What she experienced there was three days of reconnecting with emotions deep within herself through breathing, and reclaiming her authentic self.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"\u3010\u30ea\u30c8\u30ea\u30fc\u30c8\u4f53\u9a13\u8ac7\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/W70WHiwSDwU?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-text-align-left\">Decided to Give It My All<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Before the retreat even began, Ms. Neki held one firm resolution.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010\u8a18\u4e8b\u7528\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Neki<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>I had decided within myself that I would give my all to this retreat, so with that as my goal,<br \/>\nI approached it without judgment but with full commitment.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>&#8220;No judgment, but full commitment&#8221;\u2014this attitude becomes an important stance in nehan retreats.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Living in modern times, we&#8217;re accustomed to interpreting what we feel in daily life through thought, judging things as &#8220;good\/bad&#8221; or &#8220;right\/wrong.&#8221; However, a person&#8217;s essential values rarely emerge from conclusions reached through thinking alone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>During the retreat, various memories and emotions surface. What matters then is not to analyze or evaluate them, but to <strong>first fully feel what is inside yourself<\/strong>.<br>Only by opening your senses to each event and emotion can you truly see what you value most deeply.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-text-align-left\">Childhood Emotions Overflowed<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>In the first breathwork session, unexpected emotions surfaced from within Ms. Neki.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010\u8a18\u4e8b\u7528\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Neki<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>When I entered (the breathwork), tremendous sadness came up\u2014<br \/>\nsomething I had been aware of before, but this great wave of sadness emerged.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010\u8a18\u4e8b\u7528\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Neki<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>Especially emotions like &#8220;I want to be understood,&#8221; like a young child&#8217;s feelings, came up so much.<br \/>\nTears naturally overflowed, and I just kept feeling that during the first session.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>In breathwork, by intentionally repeating fast, deep breathing, carbon dioxide levels in the blood decrease, causing changes in cerebral blood flow and neural activity. This brings about what&#8217;s called an <strong>altered state of consciousness<\/strong>\u2014a state different from ordinary awareness.<br>In this state, unconscious memories inaccessible to normal consciousness\u2014childhood experiences and long-suppressed emotions\u2014can surface.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010\u8a18\u4e8b\u7528\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Neki<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>But after that ended, I felt incredibly refreshed.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>Rather than suppressing emotions, simply feeling them fully as they are.<br>When emotions you usually keep covered naturally well up, it&#8217;s a sign that your heart is ready to face unprocessed experiences.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-text-align-left\">Sensations Changing With Each Session<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>As she went through the second and third breathwork sessions, what was happening inside Ms. Neki gradually began to change.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010\u8a18\u4e8b\u7528\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Neki<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>After doing yoga, I think I could enter relaxation mode because of that,<br \/>\nbut there was definitely tremendous tension about living communally with strangers.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>Even with tension in an unfamiliar environment, she continued facing her inner self.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010\u8a18\u4e8b\u7528\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Neki<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>The second (breathwork) felt like being in amniotic fluid.<br \/>\nWhile floating there, the sadness from the first time had faded.<br \/>\nInstead, a bit of anger and guilt-like feelings came up, and it gradually changed.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>In altered states of consciousness, various visions and sensations can arise for different people.<br>Ms. Neki seemed to be experiencing emotions that shifted one after another while enveloped in sensations different from usual.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010\u8a18\u4e8b\u7528\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Neki<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>In the third session too, some thinking remained.<br \/>\nWith each session, the sensation of what was welling up within me changed little by little.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>nehan retreats emphasize not applying unnecessary judgment or thinking to your inner experiences. What matters is not what comes from thought, but simply <strong>witnessing what surfaces based on bodily sensations, exactly as it is<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Then, on the morning of the final day\u2014a clear change came to Ms. Neki.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010\u8a18\u4e8b\u7528\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Neki<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>As I approached today&#8217;s final fourth session, when I woke up this morning, I felt incredibly light.<br \/>\nUntil then, maybe because I was exhausted from releasing all that sadness, I felt a bit heavy,<br \/>\nbut it felt like space had opened up within me, and I felt so light.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>When you fully feel suppressed emotions and express them through tears or other means, you gain a sense of liberation as if a heavy burden has been lifted from your heart. This can be called psychological detox\u2014the stress responses caused by suppressing emotions are alleviated, making it easier to relax.<br>In psychology, this phenomenon is called catharsis (emotional release).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Space created within the heart. It was the open area that emerged where something long-carried had finally departed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/Hiader\u56de\u96c6\u5408\u5199\u771f\u4fee\u6b63-1024x768.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1214\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-text-align-left\">The World I See Has Changed<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010\u8a18\u4e8b\u7528\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Neki<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>What I gained during these three days was trusting myself, and because I was able to face my heart so deeply,<br \/>\nI feel like I reclaimed my axis\u2014the radiance and flame that was originally inside me.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010\u8a18\u4e8b\u7528\u3011\u6839\u6728\u6c5f\u68a8\u9999\u3055\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Neki<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>The world I see within myself has changed.<br \/>\nThank you.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>It hadn&#8217;t been lost\u2014just unseen.<br>Here, she was able to reclaim the unique light that had always been within.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Experiencing various sensations and emotions in a state of consciousness different from usual.<br>Through that experience, past events begin to take on new meaning, and what you truly cherish becomes clearly visible.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n<div class=\"q_frame q_frame2\"><span class=\"q_frame_label\">POINT<\/span>\n<p data-source-line=\"71-71\">Through breathing, reconnecting with emotions deep within yourself, and releasing what had been suppressed.<br \/>What awaited beyond was the sensation of &#8220;trusting myself&#8221; and a new version of herself with her inner radiance reclaimed.<\/p>\n<p data-source-line=\"75-75\">The three days Ms. Neki spent at nehan may have become time to return to her authentic self.<\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"featured_media":1385,"template":"","interview_category":[12],"class_list":["post-1384","interview","type-interview","status-publish","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","interview_category-soul_stirring_stories"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/interview\/1384","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/interview"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/interview"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1385"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1384"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"interview_category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/interview_category?post=1384"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}