{"id":1387,"date":"2026-02-08T14:15:50","date_gmt":"2026-02-08T05:15:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/?post_type=interview&#038;p=1387"},"modified":"2026-02-08T14:15:51","modified_gmt":"2026-02-08T05:15:51","slug":"kazuyatsuge_en","status":"publish","type":"interview","link":"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/stories\/kazuyatsuge_en\/","title":{"rendered":"What I Thought I Should Be Was Just a Belief \u2013 The True Nature of the Happiness I Really Seek"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-text-align-left\">Four years into running his company, business had gained momentum and was steadily growing.<br>Yet deep in Mr. Tsuge&#8217;s heart, there was something he had been avoiding all along.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&#8220;My authentic self probably isn&#8217;t meant for a life of climbing relentlessly in capitalism.&#8221;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>He had vaguely sensed it. But he was afraid to face it directly.<br>Through the nehan retreat, what he finally arrived at was his true self, beyond the image of &#8220;what he should be.&#8221;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"\u3010\u30ea\u30c8\u30ea\u30fc\u30c8\u4f53\u9a13\u8ac7\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u548c\u4e5f\u3055\u3093\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/whgWseL1hWU?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-text-align-left\">Something I Couldn&#8217;t Quite Grasp<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>The nehan retreat progresses over three days, centered on multiple breathwork sessions.<br>Until the final day arrived, Mr. Tsuge couldn&#8217;t quite grasp something.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>There were parts I really couldn\u2019t grasp. And with breathwork, there\u2019s this fear of actually discovering your true self.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>&#8220;Discovering your true self&#8221;\u2014where does that fear come from?<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>I\u2019ve been running my company for about four years now, and I had vaguely sensed that my authentic self probably isn\u2019t meant for a life of climbing relentlessly in capitalism.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>But I was afraid to face that directly, and until the final breathwork session, I had been avoiding it.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>&#8220;As a business owner, I should aim bigger.&#8221;<br>&#8220;I should expand the business.&#8221;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Perhaps such images of &#8220;what he should be&#8221; had been unconsciously binding him.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-text-align-left\">I Saw What I Was Truly Seeking<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>The final day. The last breathwork session began.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>What naturally welled up from within Mr. Tsuge was completely different from what he had been aiming for until then.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>At the very end, really naturally, I saw what I subconsciously truly seek.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>It was family love, enjoying lively time with people around me, or lying in a vast meadow\u2014those kinds of images and words.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>Those things naturally welled up within me, and I realized that what truly makes me happy is this kind of thing.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>Growing the business and climbing within capitalist society\u2014that might be wonderful too.<br>But what his soul truly sought was something simpler, something warmer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-text-align-left\">It&#8217;s Okay to Let Go of Beliefs<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>That realization quietly dissolved the &#8220;belief&#8221; that had been within Mr. Tsuge.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>I had this very strong belief that if I\u2019m running a business, I must aim for 10 billion yen or 100 billion yen as a business owner.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>I realized that I can let go of that belief. My true happiness isn\u2019t there.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>Not &#8220;what you should be&#8221; as decided by someone else, but what you truly want to cherish.<br>When that becomes visible, the landscape of the future begins to change.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>Maybe there\u2019s a future where that happens, but what I\u2019m really feeling now is that loving my company members and family within a range where I can fully feel happiness\u2014that\u2019s what will truly let me live happily.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-text-align-left\">Even This Fear Is Ultimately Enjoyable<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>The company&#8217;s way of being will change. Communication with employees, hiring plans, management direction\u2014everything might change.<br>Though he felt fear at that premonition, Mr. Tsuge was viewing that fear from a different angle.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>So from now on, communication with employees, hiring plans, the company\u2019s way of being\u2014I feel like everything will change dramatically. There\u2019s fear, but even the fear feels enjoyable.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>I\u2019ve traveled to India and Africa, and images from those times briefly appeared (during breathwork).<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>At first I thought it was scary\u2014there are scammers and such abroad, and I\u2019d encountered them. For a moment I thought it was scary, but even that fear was ultimately enjoyable.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>The fear I\u2019m feeling now about the company\u2019s changes\u2014I really think that ultimately, all of it is enjoyable.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/01\/%E3%82%81%E3%81%90%E3%81%BF%E3%81%95%E3%82%93%E5%9B%9E%E9%9B%86%E5%90%88%E5%86%99%E7%9C%9F%E4%BF%AE%E6%AD%A3-1024x768.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-1230\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-text-align-left\">A Place Where I Can Maintain My True Self<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Another experience at nehan\u2014the practice of &#8220;I am aware that I am aware&#8221;\u2014also held great meaning for Mr. Tsuge.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>The practice of \u201cI am aware that I am aware\u201d was really good too. I had vaguely sensed my authentic self, but in normal life, I really felt I couldn\u2019t protect it.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>When you return to daily life, various information flows in again. Open social media, and words demanding economic growth fly around.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>When I see information on X, even though my authentic self wants to cherish family, there\u2019s noise like \u201cannual revenue of 10 billion or 100 billion is good,\u201d and labels keep getting slapped on top.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>At such times my heart gets disturbed, or I get swept away by comparison, but when I look at my authentic self at the soul level, I realize that\u2019s not it.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<p>&#8220;Finding&#8221; your true self is important, of course. But &#8220;maintaining&#8221; it is even harder.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>In a word, I felt that here was an environment where I could maintain my true self. Finding it is amazing, but I thought maintaining it would be incredibly difficult too.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"interviewer_content\">\n<div class=\"left_content\">\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/nehan.life\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2026\/02\/\u3010WEB\u8a18\u4e8b\u8a71\u8005\u3011\u67d8\u690d\u304f\u3093.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"180\" height=\"180\" \/>\n<p class=\"name\">Tsuge<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"right_content\">\n<p>Being able to experience both was truly a first for me, and I genuinely want to recommend it.<\/p>\n\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n<div class=\"q_frame q_frame2\"><span class=\"q_frame_label\">POINT<\/span><\/p>\n<p data-source-line=\"249-249\">What Mr. Tsuge gained at nehan was the courage to let go of &#8220;what he should be&#8221; and the sense of continuing to protect his true self.<br \/>Beyond the belief that he &#8220;should aim for 10 billion yen&#8221; were quiet forms of happiness: time laughing with family, lively days with companions, and lying in a vast meadow.<\/p>\n<p data-source-line=\"253-254\">It may not be flashy. <br \/>But that was exactly what his soul truly sought.<\/p>\n<p data-source-line=\"256-257\">Now, Mr. Tsuge has begun walking a new path. 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